Nurse Problems

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Emily.

Emily was one of my best friends. We met through a boyfriend of mine and since that day we were the closest of friends. She was sooo fun, caring, loving, happy, outgoing, optimistic.. the compliments could keep coming, i mean she was a really BEAUTIFUL person. I hate the saying, "Bad things happen to good people" because for some reason, it always seems to be true. Emily was 19 years old when she passed away on January 19th, 2011. She died from DIC (Disseminated Intravascular Coagulation) after having a C-section to deliver her baby boy. I received the news at work and I was in complete shock. I remember when I met Emily how excited she was to be having a baby. She bought all the books, read all the magazines, she ate healthier and exercised-- she wanted to be the best mom she could be. The piece of her that was left is gonna be two this upcoming January and he is just LIKE his momma-- always smiling and so loving :) I look at this picture and I still can't believe she is gone. There has been times that I really wanted to talk to her.. hear her laugh or have her cheer me up. I know she's still around though.. looking out for all of us including her son :) Love you, Em <3

I'm BACK!

I am back to blogging!! :) Thanks to Cory (traumanurse), I have decided to jump back on here and write down everything that has happened since the last time I was up here, hmmm.. back in 2010 haha. OKAY, so excuse the horrible grammar but i'm lazy. lol. Let me seeeee.... Well my last post was about my brothers wedding-- it went amazing. They just had their 2 year anniversary the other day :) It was a lot of... conflict and drama between the families but in the end, i guess you can say it was well worth it. Not much else has happened, well i take that back, A LOT has happened but i'll save those stories for another post. NURSING INFO: I have completed a majority of my prerequisites for nursing school at a local community college but the rest of the classes have been put on hold because I AM IN LPN SCHOOL!! I graduate September 5th of this year so NOT TOO MUCH LONGER :D So far, i have really enjoyed EVERY moment of it. That hospital feels like home to me. There has been ups and downs and times when i thought i couldn't do it or i wasn't smart enough but i've pushed myself and i've had patients that have reassured me that being a nurse was what i was meant to do :) This year has FLOWN by and it's gonna be bittersweet graduating because i love school so much but i have plenty more years ahead! Gonna look into finishing up my prereqs this fall semester so i can go ahead and apply for the RN program for May 2013. BETTER pass the PN NCLEX first though! :P

On my way to insanity.

So all last month and this month has been extremely crazy! Working all the time, falling behind in school BECAUSE of work, and dealing with my brothers crazy wedding. I just can not wait to have it all over with! I am still waiting on my recommendations for the nursing programs. It is really aggravating me on how long its taking everybody because really they didn't have to do anything but check off stuff.. ughh. Yes, this blog is going to be nothing but me venting and relieving my stress. If you don't want to hear it (well read it is more like it) then I suggest you read another blog =( About work;; We have a NEW boss.. ok, shes nice, whatever. We are short staffed which mneans more work for brittany =( It gets soo tiring after awhile and maybe it would be better if I enjoyed it half as much as everyone else but for right now, it ain't happening. My brothers wedding is another disaster all within itself. Their wedding is estimated at 50,000 dollars (wtf,right? thats what i said!). Her family has money so it works for them but my family on the other hand.. not so much. Because of the money issue, everyone is stressed and arguing. Then on top of trying to keep them from fighting, I get kicked out of the wedding because I did not attend the wedding party. Sheeshhh! I am back in it now but thats ANOTHER long story.. lol. Yes, this blog has a point. The point is that I have a lot going on and I can not wait for it all to settle and work out... hopefully. Sorry for the complaining. I promise next time it will be more interesting ;P

My future awaits..

Today I went and discussed my choices for nursing. I distributed some more recommedations for the LPN and RN program.. got to keep my options open. So far (even though I was told I shouldn't) I think I might get into the LPN program and bridge over to the RN. I think I am going to have to do this anyway because my grades aren't the best for the RN program and I'm scared!! I think it may be to fast pace for me.. I am so scared I am going to get into it and then flunk out =( Whatever happens, I hope I get into something because if not.. I have NO clue what I am going to do in the meantime.

Realization

Friday night I spent some well-needed time with my mother. I have talked to her every day since my mawmaw has died but we haven't really discussed our feelings and Friday night was when we let it all out. I did not realize how much of my mawmaw was in my mother until that night. We sat infront of the fire place laughing, crying and sharing things with each other that we only talked about with "mawmaw" (her mother). It felt so great and it made me realize how I'm going to spend more time with my family and friends. Before I didn't want to be around my mom because I knew that seeing her would make me deal with my mawmaw's death but moments with your family and friends can heal wounds, not just time. I have a lot of things going on right now in my life but I want to stop making excuses of why I haven't spent time with my best friend or why I haven't called my parents. I want to embrace all the time I can with the people I have in my life now. It is true that you never know when someone's time is going to be over. My best friend's dad just died this past week. Out of the blue he had a massive heart attack. He was put in the hospital and then brought into an induced coma. When the doctors ran test on him they then established that he was brain dead. The family decided to "pull the plug" and shortly after their decision, the beat of his heart came to a stop. My best friend woke up that morning thinking that he would see his dad again and he did but not the way anyone would want to see their parent. He never got to say "goodbye" or "i love you" with his dad's awareness. Which brings me to this, life is a strange but beautiful experience that can end as quickly as it began. Everyone (including me) needs to take every moment for granted. When you're laughing so hard you cry, keep laughing. Cry until your eyes swell because atleast you can still feel and express emotion. Love until it hurts and then KEEP LOVING because in the end, it will be worth it. These moments make us. DON'T TAKE THEM FOR GRANTED.

UGHH!

So today has been a bad day && to top it all off.. I REALLY extremely miss my mawmaw.