Jan. 22, 2010

I promised I would try to write at least once a week so... that is what I am doing. So right now I am watching a show on how the paranormal communicate with people, helping them pass along messages to the living and helping them see the future. Right now this guy is "reading" this woman's mind and taking a chance at stabbing himself in the hand with a knife. The world is filled with idiots. Of course I do believe that sometimes people can communicate with the dead but in this case... i don't know if i would test my skill that way. It makes me laugh really.. I do wish I could communicate with my mawmaw. I have sooo many questions for her. I know this is selfish but I want to know that she is here with me.. I know she is gone physically but it would made everything easier if I knew she was here spiritually. Maybe fixing all the things that could go wrong in my life. I passed out my recommendations, I gave two to 2 doctors I have worked with and 1 to my guidance counselor. I take my test March 29th and Im so excited but nervous. If I don't get into this program I dont know what i am going to do. I am going to apply to the LPN program too (PLEASE dont be mad cory!!) but its like a PLAN B. Im hoping of course I wont need a plan B but who knows what is going to happen.. the nursing program is VERY competitive. My best friend, Erika, was in the LPN program and she just withdrew the other day =( I felt bad for her but then again it is what she felt was right so I stood beside her. I believe she could have been a good nurse but psychologically, I don't thinks she could have handled it. She gets very emotional when she thinks of someone passing away or someone dying. Hopefully I won't have that problem. I understand that you have to separate personal life from work. I believe that I would feel sadness for the family but it wouldnt slow me down, I don't think that it would keep me from doing my job, from being a good nurse :) AHHH i want to be a nurse already!! HAHA. I'm sure my mentor, cory, is saying, "patience, grasshopper". Well until next week!! This show is grabbing my attention!