Realization

Friday night I spent some well-needed time with my mother. I have talked to her every day since my mawmaw has died but we haven't really discussed our feelings and Friday night was when we let it all out. I did not realize how much of my mawmaw was in my mother until that night. We sat infront of the fire place laughing, crying and sharing things with each other that we only talked about with "mawmaw" (her mother). It felt so great and it made me realize how I'm going to spend more time with my family and friends. Before I didn't want to be around my mom because I knew that seeing her would make me deal with my mawmaw's death but moments with your family and friends can heal wounds, not just time. I have a lot of things going on right now in my life but I want to stop making excuses of why I haven't spent time with my best friend or why I haven't called my parents. I want to embrace all the time I can with the people I have in my life now. It is true that you never know when someone's time is going to be over. My best friend's dad just died this past week. Out of the blue he had a massive heart attack. He was put in the hospital and then brought into an induced coma. When the doctors ran test on him they then established that he was brain dead. The family decided to "pull the plug" and shortly after their decision, the beat of his heart came to a stop. My best friend woke up that morning thinking that he would see his dad again and he did but not the way anyone would want to see their parent. He never got to say "goodbye" or "i love you" with his dad's awareness. Which brings me to this, life is a strange but beautiful experience that can end as quickly as it began. Everyone (including me) needs to take every moment for granted. When you're laughing so hard you cry, keep laughing. Cry until your eyes swell because atleast you can still feel and express emotion. Love until it hurts and then KEEP LOVING because in the end, it will be worth it. These moments make us. DON'T TAKE THEM FOR GRANTED.